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ok guys so rite now all my stuff is in HUUUUUGE boxes cuz im moving 2 gold river!! aaaand you have no iea how sad moving makes me.. LOL cuz i've lived in this stupid house for lyk 14 of the soon 2 be 16 years of my lyf. and its sad 2 think that i will never again be able to pick cherries from the cherry tree or oranges from the orange tree in the spring. no more walks to the park. hmmm... i dont think i want 2 move.. i've lived in this house waaay 2 long i even have these little marks on the wall from when i was little and sued 2 mark how much i grew. And it like has all these different things that bring up lots of different memories ahhhh i hate changeeee....

and i feel like such a mess being so stupidly depressed about such a silly thing. But seriously whyyyy do things?? why do PEOPLE change?? i wish they didn't like our original group from churchill of lyk 10+ people is now only FOOOUUUR people!

Yea and i know i have many new friendships now that i wud never trade 4 anything in the world.. BUUUTT each relationship you have with a person is differnet and unique lyk you talk about different things which each of your freinds. ITS TRUUUE and i miss iiit.

I don't even remember when I stopped beign friends with these people.. it jsut lyk fell apart i guess.. but now its lyk in the halls we show now signs of evne knowing eachother let alone being friends.

Well i guess taht means we were never REALLY friends. its interesting how i consider SOOO manny people "friends" but I only have THREE real friends. But i guess that extraordinary ocnsidering the type of world we live in?? so tahnx guys 4 EVERYTHING... i appreciate you soooo much MORE THAN U CAN IMAGINE! and i hoep that we will ALWAYS b friends!!

wow why am i so stupid and nostalgic??? haha how could anyone go from the topic of moving 2 frinds hahaha
and actaully this seems lyke a reaaaaallly emo entry... hahah its lyk anti-moona
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